Thinking of you dad !!

Well it was kind of an emotional day for me today. I woke up thinking about how dad's ashes were being burried and I wouldn't be there. Then at about 10:50 am (1:50pm Ontario time) someone asked me about dad. It was someone from Atlas who works in the office and hadn't heard. I had been keeping an eye on the time because I wanted to have a moments silence for dad. I finaly got to around 11:15am. I thought about dad alot on my trip out here. It's wierd when you devote a couple months to be with someone and help them however you can. After their gone a part of you is gone because you get used to a routine. You get used to looking after them as part of your every day routine. Get up check on dad, drink a can of coke check on dad, everything centererd around dad and there wasn't any other way I would have wanted it. I think back over the last year at things that have happened and they happened for one reason. If Barb and I hadn't broke up I wouldn't have been able to go to Ontario for as long as I did. If I still had Nikko I wouldn't have been able to be there like I was. I do regret a bit that, I left Ontario to go back out west but I honestly thought dad was doing better without his chemo and I had stuff I had to take care of out there. If I did it over I would have flown and only been gone 2 weeks. I noticed a huge difference in dad when I got back. But before I left I got to spend some quality time with dad and that I will allways cherish. The time I spent with dad the last 2 months was just as special. There was a bond between us and dad had to have alot of trust in me. Although it was a hard time for both of us (all of us really) I tried to let dad know how much we loved and appreciated his love.

So dad if your up there in heaven and someone is reading this to you because I know you didn't care for the internet and our blogs I just want you to know that I wouldn't have changed it for anything. I'm glad I could be there for you when you needed me the most. I hope you have met up with mom and all your friends that are up there too. Take care and I'll see you again one day.

Love
Whats his name !!