I Love My Dad

I know that most of you know that on Aug 2nd my father passed away at home. I had wanted to make a post because I have internet friends that as far as I know they still read this. The time hasn't been easy for me and I've tried to stay strong for my family. Well at the funeral home Saturday the day of the funeral it was all too much for me. I had a bit of a meltdown. I was able to make it over to a chair and sit down but I was having trouble breathing. my whole body was numb and I felt paralized. My family was there helping me getting me water and a cold cloth for my head and when I oppened my eyes I saw Alf in front of me. I knew I was going to be ok then.

The ambulance showed up and took me out and Karl was there with me. I tried to let everyone know I was going to be ok and it did ease off a bit in the ambulance. Then I looked outside and saw everyone standing around watching and waiting so I told the ambulance to take me somewhere. I wanted the funeral to go on. Karl came with me and was with me for quite awhile then I heard they were holding the funeral so I told him to go and let them get it done.

They did a bunch of tests, took some xrays and then redid some tests later. For now I'm on Adavan which I was hoping was going to make me high and forget everything but its a downer and it slows everything down. Mandy sat with me for quite awhile and even got me some diet coke. As much as I wanted it I could only drink a small amount. Then all my nephews and neices appeard and the Drs thought they better release me. I ended up going home and relaxing on the couch till about 5pm today.

Just so everyone knows the truth I did NOT go 3 days without eating. I did not eat breakfast but I hadn't been eating that for weeks. The day before the funeral I actualy pigged out pretty well. 3 or 4 slices of pizza and 2 plates of potatoes, carrots, roastbeef and gravy.

On a funny note when I got dressed that morning I thought my pants were a bit more snug than they should be. At the hospital I needed to take a pee and when I undid my pants I was thinking ,,, I didn't wear grey underwear today. I had put my pants on over my sweat shorts which I put on after my shower. So with the blue gown I was still good in my shorts.

Thanks to everyone who has called and asked about me, I'm feeling much better now. It could be the drugs talking tho LOL Heading back to the couch and going to think about how I can thank the Ti Cats for the flowers they sent.

Take care all, see you soon after 3 days in Muskoka lounging on the beach and going to see the wolves.