Its just after fathers day here on the west coast and I'm sitting downstairs with the computer on my lap watching TV. Now I didn't get around to writing anything on Facebook but it doesn't mean I wasn't thinking of him. It doesn't get any easier as time passes we just learn to deal with the loss better.

 Recently an elderly gentleman I knew from him coming in to Wal Mart passed away. A year ago I did some stuff to help him out after his wife passed away and he made me a muffin and came into the lab where we had a toast to her life with ginger ale. We became friends after that. When his daughter was talking to me about him it was hard holding back tears knowing what it felt to be in her shoes. As much as you try to comfort someone you know its going to be hard on them for a long time. Its not just the first Christmas without them its every Christmas without them. It's every Fathers day .... its every anniversary of their passing and of their birthday. Plus its all the good things that happen to you that they are not there to share with you.

When my mother passed away it took a long time for me to start enjoying life again. Its hard to enjoy things that they would have enjoyed because they cant enjoy anything any more. So I went a long time not wanting to go to family functions or if I did I would not want to stay long. When my dad passed away I was thinking a little different and I could enjoy more things knowing he would have enjoyed it. I enjoy football games because I remember going to games with him and also laying on his bed when he was ill and watching a game with him. I could have gone to the game but Id rather be with him and enjoy the time we had together. My dad was a huge Ti Cat fan and I still am. I have followed the BC Lions because of Andrew Harris and have wished him well (and its worked so far LOL) but have told him I'm a Ti Cat fan.

One thing I think of is how he was such a big Leaf fan and I never was or ever will be. I do have his Leaf Jersey in my closet but I will never wear it. If Annette comes back out here I will give it to her to take back to Tyler so he can wear it to Leaf games when he goes with Amanda. I know dad would have loved her because she is such a huge sports fan. And to not leave Lacie out I know that dad loved her. I watch his birthday video once in a while when he gets her to help him with the candles. Ryan has done well.

 Wow what an unexpected blog this was. Always happens when I don't plan a blog my brain just keeps pushing out the info. I do have a couple blogs in mind and have some pictures to post hopefully in the near future. So as this post isn't totally boring Ive added a few pictures in memory of my father who to me was the best dad anyone could have and I loved him with all my heart not just fathers day
 but every day of my life!